Space..

Im a bit angry with someone today..I couldnt blame her for thinking that way actually after much thought..I was wrong for not msging her but she's at fault also for not looking the matter in the right manner and straight judge me..maybe she's expecting too much from me..ya its not wrong to expect so much from someone especially someone you cared about someone you actually shared everything..What i wana say to her is Im sorry..i juz couldnt commit myself wholly into this relationship yet..i still care for my friends and my family..im not gonna put her as my first priority..ya you can say that im haunted by the past but i really dont wish to commit the same mistakes ive made in the past..im very happy to be with my friends now and i dont intend to change anything even if i have a girlfriend..lately i've been busy and all i want is some space for myself..time to do what i want and the things i like..im serious in a relationship..like i said before even if i didnt show that i care doesnt meant i dont care at all..im not lying or cheating..this i can promise you..dont make it so hard for yourself..if u dont feel like im the one then dont waste time on me..be fair to yourself..and be fair to me..it takes time to really know me and i wont blame you for looking at me that way..but the most fundamental thing here is trust..there's no trust so there's no point..

Weight Management Schedule..

What a wonderful way to put it..ahaha gonna start on my diet again this time around..losing weight is an essential key to my better life..its part of the success plan..i really need to work out a lot and eat lesser..its a difficult task i should say..from 85 to 70 kg..sounds impossible right?but i guess with the right frame of mind and a little encouragement would help a lot in the process..so at this moment i need people who is supportive and caring..ok the question here is how to start..for me, it would be measuring your own weight first..getting to know yourself better..then put it up into the BMI chart and see where you stand..OMG!im in the obesity category!sad lo!aha 1kg less to overweight category..my ideal weight would be 70kg..15kg to ideal weight..gogogo!anyway im doing all these to avoid all the chronic diseases that can be derived from obesity..prevention is better than cure thats what people always say..im kinda lazy and untidy i must admit..i need to improve on this..lets get back to the point..how to get from 85 to 70..perseverance is the key point here..i must resist myself from all the food temptations at this time..from where we are staying i guess its a tough job to handle..penang wor..food's paradise!even at this time when im typing this im craving for food!see how terrible it is..one more habit i need to break is waking up early..everyday i must wake up at 7am and go hiking or jogging in botanical garden..monday and tuesday is badminton day for me..wednesday i should do something beneficial but most of the time wednesday i think i'll allocate it for movies..RM6 only what do you expect?maybe it'll be an exception from exercise..i still havent planned anything for thursday, friday and saturday..sunday i'll be ok coz i'll be having my futsal quite regularly..sweating it out is the best way to burn your fats!i need to allocate time for that three days..ok lets get back to another crucial point..improving our eating habits..its hard to have calorie control so i wouldnt recommend that.choosing the right food to eat would be ideal..i used to eat only apples for meals..eating only apples consecutively for 7 days a week will definitely help you to lose 5kg..thats for the start..then you can go for lighter food to maintain your body..afterall you need to have energy to go on with the plan right?after stripping off the 5kg then i'll have only 10kg more to go..this will be the hardest part..actually i wouldnt mind having apples for the rest of the plan lo..ahaha better than having only eggs..during the diet i will look really 'chan' coz my face colour will start to change..i'll look pale coz lack of nutrition..thats why i need to eat something back after that 7 days to compensate for the loss..not heavy meals remember!only light food..chicken not fried ya..then perhaps some veges?porridge with chicken or mee suah with meat..all 'cheng' one..in simple words its not oily lo..try not to eat mee too much..bread can eat but not too much though..carbo mar..i talk like im so pro like that huh?ahaha got carried away..sorry ya..i guess thats about it..exercising is the main engine behind all these..for those who wanted to challenge me feel free to tell me so..a challenge would be good..a bet would be even better!good luck to me and those that wanted to change to a much improved person!gambateh!!!

So Near Yet So Far..

So near yet so far..ya is just how i can describe the state of myself right now..it means im holding a person very close to my heart but yet she's still so far away..it is so hard to understand girls and meeting their expectations..they like hearing beautiful speech but yet is so unreceptive towards the truth..somehow they felt intimidated by reality..they only welcome comments that illustrates how beautiful and sweet they are..they wanted to feel important..yes everyone wants to feel important we are just human being..we want to feel appreciated..but so are guys..dont neglect our needs because you wanted that kind of attention..sometimes you got to see from our point of view..for me i like a girl who will support me in whatever i do..having a girlfriend or a wife that argues with you everyday will only contribute to stress and loss of concentration..its better if you choose someone that truly understands and cares for you inside out..its better that you know it earlier than be sorry later in your life..

E-Bong

Here I am again..still thinking of what to write here..actually it was a pretty fun week for me..been laughing and laughing and laughing..the other day when I was in gurney..it was quite embarassing though but I'd like to share it here..we were talking about 'bong' in hokkien..in english it means grave..then suddenly the e-bong word came out..(electronic bong)..I dono how the hell we get into that topic..we burst into endless laughters!all kinds of idea flashes through our minds..like e-joss stick..e-kim chua..e-flowers..ahahahaha damn it was fun juz thinking about it!after that we were planning for a business..e-bong business where people would visit this webpage to pray for the dead..sounds errie huh?I dono how the programmer going to go through his nite uploading all the pics..imagine that..its quite a fascinating idea dont u think so?people paying through creditcards, cheques, paypal..can u imagine the money we're going to get if this thing works?i'd like to try it eventhough if its not successful..I dont wish to be talking about it the whole day and ends up with nothing..I admit it was quite an astonishing thought..ridiculous but yet refreshing..full of creativity and originality!besides that we thought of penetrating into malay markets with e-kubur..christian with e-graves..and of coz e-bong for chinese lar..ahaha sounds funny right?its definitely a new business to venture into..i'd like to get some responds here..it might become a new big hit in town..try picturing the banner..(E-Bong..coming soon) at the cemetary!unbelievable..its gonna be cheaper than buying a 'bong'..flowers and joss sticks all gonna sell as well..my bro was talking about putting a death timer there..LOL..putting your picture there then with each passing day the colour is gonna wear off..fading until your death!I was laughing all my way from the new wing to the old wing gurney!you guys are welcome to add in any features in the e-bong ok?it'll be something like facebook or friendster..just that its full of dead people database (geri lo..) : )