Space..

Im a bit angry with someone today..I couldnt blame her for thinking that way actually after much thought..I was wrong for not msging her but she's at fault also for not looking the matter in the right manner and straight judge me..maybe she's expecting too much from me..ya its not wrong to expect so much from someone especially someone you cared about someone you actually shared everything..What i wana say to her is Im sorry..i juz couldnt commit myself wholly into this relationship yet..i still care for my friends and my family..im not gonna put her as my first priority..ya you can say that im haunted by the past but i really dont wish to commit the same mistakes ive made in the past..im very happy to be with my friends now and i dont intend to change anything even if i have a girlfriend..lately i've been busy and all i want is some space for myself..time to do what i want and the things i like..im serious in a relationship..like i said before even if i didnt show that i care doesnt meant i dont care at all..im not lying or cheating..this i can promise you..dont make it so hard for yourself..if u dont feel like im the one then dont waste time on me..be fair to yourself..and be fair to me..it takes time to really know me and i wont blame you for looking at me that way..but the most fundamental thing here is trust..there's no trust so there's no point..

Weight Management Schedule..

What a wonderful way to put it..ahaha gonna start on my diet again this time around..losing weight is an essential key to my better life..its part of the success plan..i really need to work out a lot and eat lesser..its a difficult task i should say..from 85 to 70 kg..sounds impossible right?but i guess with the right frame of mind and a little encouragement would help a lot in the process..so at this moment i need people who is supportive and caring..ok the question here is how to start..for me, it would be measuring your own weight first..getting to know yourself better..then put it up into the BMI chart and see where you stand..OMG!im in the obesity category!sad lo!aha 1kg less to overweight category..my ideal weight would be 70kg..15kg to ideal weight..gogogo!anyway im doing all these to avoid all the chronic diseases that can be derived from obesity..prevention is better than cure thats what people always say..im kinda lazy and untidy i must admit..i need to improve on this..lets get back to the point..how to get from 85 to 70..perseverance is the key point here..i must resist myself from all the food temptations at this time..from where we are staying i guess its a tough job to handle..penang wor..food's paradise!even at this time when im typing this im craving for food!see how terrible it is..one more habit i need to break is waking up early..everyday i must wake up at 7am and go hiking or jogging in botanical garden..monday and tuesday is badminton day for me..wednesday i should do something beneficial but most of the time wednesday i think i'll allocate it for movies..RM6 only what do you expect?maybe it'll be an exception from exercise..i still havent planned anything for thursday, friday and saturday..sunday i'll be ok coz i'll be having my futsal quite regularly..sweating it out is the best way to burn your fats!i need to allocate time for that three days..ok lets get back to another crucial point..improving our eating habits..its hard to have calorie control so i wouldnt recommend that.choosing the right food to eat would be ideal..i used to eat only apples for meals..eating only apples consecutively for 7 days a week will definitely help you to lose 5kg..thats for the start..then you can go for lighter food to maintain your body..afterall you need to have energy to go on with the plan right?after stripping off the 5kg then i'll have only 10kg more to go..this will be the hardest part..actually i wouldnt mind having apples for the rest of the plan lo..ahaha better than having only eggs..during the diet i will look really 'chan' coz my face colour will start to change..i'll look pale coz lack of nutrition..thats why i need to eat something back after that 7 days to compensate for the loss..not heavy meals remember!only light food..chicken not fried ya..then perhaps some veges?porridge with chicken or mee suah with meat..all 'cheng' one..in simple words its not oily lo..try not to eat mee too much..bread can eat but not too much though..carbo mar..i talk like im so pro like that huh?ahaha got carried away..sorry ya..i guess thats about it..exercising is the main engine behind all these..for those who wanted to challenge me feel free to tell me so..a challenge would be good..a bet would be even better!good luck to me and those that wanted to change to a much improved person!gambateh!!!

So Near Yet So Far..

So near yet so far..ya is just how i can describe the state of myself right now..it means im holding a person very close to my heart but yet she's still so far away..it is so hard to understand girls and meeting their expectations..they like hearing beautiful speech but yet is so unreceptive towards the truth..somehow they felt intimidated by reality..they only welcome comments that illustrates how beautiful and sweet they are..they wanted to feel important..yes everyone wants to feel important we are just human being..we want to feel appreciated..but so are guys..dont neglect our needs because you wanted that kind of attention..sometimes you got to see from our point of view..for me i like a girl who will support me in whatever i do..having a girlfriend or a wife that argues with you everyday will only contribute to stress and loss of concentration..its better if you choose someone that truly understands and cares for you inside out..its better that you know it earlier than be sorry later in your life..

E-Bong

Here I am again..still thinking of what to write here..actually it was a pretty fun week for me..been laughing and laughing and laughing..the other day when I was in gurney..it was quite embarassing though but I'd like to share it here..we were talking about 'bong' in hokkien..in english it means grave..then suddenly the e-bong word came out..(electronic bong)..I dono how the hell we get into that topic..we burst into endless laughters!all kinds of idea flashes through our minds..like e-joss stick..e-kim chua..e-flowers..ahahahaha damn it was fun juz thinking about it!after that we were planning for a business..e-bong business where people would visit this webpage to pray for the dead..sounds errie huh?I dono how the programmer going to go through his nite uploading all the pics..imagine that..its quite a fascinating idea dont u think so?people paying through creditcards, cheques, paypal..can u imagine the money we're going to get if this thing works?i'd like to try it eventhough if its not successful..I dont wish to be talking about it the whole day and ends up with nothing..I admit it was quite an astonishing thought..ridiculous but yet refreshing..full of creativity and originality!besides that we thought of penetrating into malay markets with e-kubur..christian with e-graves..and of coz e-bong for chinese lar..ahaha sounds funny right?its definitely a new business to venture into..i'd like to get some responds here..it might become a new big hit in town..try picturing the banner..(E-Bong..coming soon) at the cemetary!unbelievable..its gonna be cheaper than buying a 'bong'..flowers and joss sticks all gonna sell as well..my bro was talking about putting a death timer there..LOL..putting your picture there then with each passing day the colour is gonna wear off..fading until your death!I was laughing all my way from the new wing to the old wing gurney!you guys are welcome to add in any features in the e-bong ok?it'll be something like facebook or friendster..just that its full of dead people database (geri lo..) : )

A Blast From The Past..

Wow..another year has gone..time flies without us realizing..this year seems like a very fast year to me..nothing has changed..suddenly recalled back those old memories..thats what people called a blast from the past..it hits me in the face!Im getting old by the days but I felt that I still havent done anything to improve myself or anything for that matter..having a tough time here coping up with the recession..its scary thinking about the future when you still have nothing right now..some people are blessed with good fortunes..some people flourished in their career..and some already have a family of their own..I envied them..I cant blame anyone but myself for not trying hard enough..most probably its because of my attitude and this is the part that I wanna improve..I've got lots of bad habits thats why I'm not going anywhere unless I change them..I've consulted my friends regarding my habits..boy am I sad to hear all those habits!aha lazy and pessimistic tops the chart..I need the right frame of mind at this very moment..I need to change for the better..Thinking about the past few years really bring me down..I've got lots of ideas and plans but none that I have accomplished so far..all talk but no action..really disappointed with myself..I hope that 2009 will be a year that I will fight though I may struggle along the way but I feel its gonna worth it..Im glad that I've got friends that supported me and accompanied me throughout this difficult time..the darkest days of my life..deep inside me I know I couldnt afford to waste much time anymore and I really need to work hard..for a better future..I can feel the changes in me and I know I'm gonna excel in what I do..successful people have successful habits!thats where I'm heading!wish me luck ya! : )

Focus

The power of focus..this book has really taught me a lot..though ive just read two chapters but i already found out the power of it..it makes u ponder..the reflection of yourself..at first its about changing our habits..this is the second part..focusing on your strength..that means solely concentrate on what you do best and let the others do the rest..it takes a lot of hardwork to focus on the one thing you do best..maybe right now you think that you can do a lot of things or that you are a multitasking person but at the end of the day there is always a thing that you do best!it could perhaps be accounting, managing people, sales, singing, swimming, or even playing badminton..we are a gift from God so we must make use of the talent He has given to us..most of us took a long way just to find it out..in the book it shows one example of focusing on your strength..only by just doing what you do best..ever heard of rolling stones band?they were a hit in the 80's and even until now they are still a legend..a stage was set up for them..all they do was to come to the concert..sing and make the best possible performance..they go back after that knowing that they've succeeded in capturing the heart of their fans..the rest of the concert is handled by the others..the stage, the mic, the rental, the sales is not even in their mind..so did u get the point?another example would be jim carrey..he's always doing what he does best..a comedian..he spent hours in his early years in the mirror..putting on a funny look and bending his body in ways that make you laugh seeing it..ace ventura and the mask..that was his hit at that time..he never did take up any serious characters at the early stage of his career..he focused on his strength and he's loving it..on top of that he's one of the highest paid actors in his era..do what you do best and focus just on your strength and you'll reap the rewards in the future!learn to let go of your weaknesses and improve on your strength..dont spend time improving your weaknesses..dont you feel it makes sense?it'll be fun finding out what you do best..try it!it might actually surprise you!

Habits..

This is a topic i wanna talk about this time around and its about habits..
changing your bad habits into good habits..successful people have successful habits and they tend to do it everyday..if lazy is your bad habit then you need to change it into a full new sets of habits..maybe like wake up early and sleeping early would be an ideal habit..oh ya first of all you need to identify your habits..go ask someone that you respect and admire for your bad habits..if your habit is to spend money then you need to change it into saving money for example save 10% of your income every month..put it away so that you dont see it..maybe put into an account that you will never touch..no ATM cards for this account..that is one way to secure it..aha..if you feel that you are fat because of your bad eating habits then you need to change it..eat lesser and consume more healthy food instead of oily and junk foods other than that exercise by doing some sports..make it a point to weigh yourself everyday before you go to work..thats the only way you can reflect on yourself..but all of these wont work if you are lack of focus..never give up and join a group of people with positive thinking..that way you'll never go out of the path..make sure all of you are in the same direction..its easier than doing it alone..remember the greatest thing in the world is not so much about where we are right now, but in which direction we are moving..Good Luck guys in changing your habits into a successful one..FOCUS!!

I Hate You But I Love You..

Dont you realize a lot of times when you started to develop a hatred feeling towards that someone u’ll eventually started falling for that person badly?hate and love is actually a similar kind of feeling..strong affections for each other..i for one started to hate my beloved someone first and draws myself so ever closer to her in the end..what i can say is..it can be easily switched..when the feeling is twisted you’ll find yourself missing that someone..every second every minute of your life without that person is torturing..often wondering what he/she is doing..every glimpse will be on the phone checking out for sms or calls from that someone..its true that this feeling is gonna last a lot longer than your normal infatuations..this feeling is extraordinary..its burning..and hope it can sparks you with a sensation that will last u a whole life through..

Fate

This is such a big word in love and friendship..its fate that has brought us together..its true when people say that..its not so easy to fall in love with only one person out of millions people out there..you’ll feel the connections..even good friends needed fate to stay together..people that has fate can easily click with each other..usually have the some hobbies, taste and preference..sometimes when the fate is over there is no turning back..there is a timeline..for example..i met this girl when i was doing my matriculation in college..the first instant i saw her i know she’s the one..she never knew who i was..after 6 months i hop to another matriculation studies in other college..after a year i went back to the old college to further my studies..there i met her again..wat a coincidence..i can never forget such a sweet and innocent looking girl..this time i get to know her after scolding her when i heard she was talking bad about my friend..she clarified everything and we became close friends after that..we ended up being a couple..she has given me 3 beautiful years..its fate that does the magic..i couldnt ask for more..but its also fate that does the damage..because of her parents objection we finally ended our relationship..there's nothing much i can do but to accept my fate..though its just a short lived happiness but it has taught me a lot in the process..
the second person is a friend i know from internet..i’ve known her for 10 years..we havent met more than 10 times in our lives..mostly chatting on the phone and internet..thats all we did and we became close friends though we are miles apart but ive always felt her presence..she has always been there for me..not physically but that will do..we never give up on our fate..coz we believed in it and we’re still standing strong..we may not be lovers but we shared our souls..ahaha ok gona end this crap..its juz a summary of my life..quite interesting eh?a bit embarrassing though..but who cares..

Love & Magic

Love and magic have a great deal in common. They enrich the soul, delight the heart. And they both take practice. If you love something, let it go. If it comes back it’s yours. If it doesn’t, it never really was in the first place. Immature love says: ‘I love you because I need you.’ Mature love says ‘I need you because I love you.’ Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction. You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her..

this passage was quoted from someone but i dono who it was..anyway cheers!

Koi Mil..Gaya..

U muz be wondering what it means by koi mil..gaya..its a tough one to guess!its actually a hindi language meaning 'i've found someone'..its also a movie that i adore..the first ever hindi movie i've watched with my beloved..its kinda cute..a hindi version of the movie E.T..thats considered a very good try by the bollywood directors..i love the songs in the movie..if i have the time then i'll load the music video up for you guys..ok lets get to the point..recently i met a girl..she's someone i barely knew..i met her online a few nites before..ever since then i found myself drawing closer to her..there's something about this girl that keeps me wanting to know her more..she shared a lot with me..i found out that she has just broken up with her boyfriend..obviously she has not gotten over him if not she wouldnt have mentioned him over and over again..that guy was a two-timer..playing with her feelings and taking her for granted..she kept on saying how stupid she was for falling to a guy like that..perhaps she's still young and havent seen a lot of people yet..a world that she thought nice and beautiful was suddenly shattered..i know its not easy for her to pull herself up after such incident..so i lend her a shoulder to cry on..i just hope that i can help her go through this difficult period..i may not be a good talker but im definitely a good listener..i wouldnt wana mention her name here in this blog coz i feel i should respect her privacy..to this special someone i hope you can really wake up and face the reality of life..its a cruel world out there and you need to be strong to overcome the obstacles that is coming your way..before i end..this is what i wanted to say to her..despite all these you still found me..so this world is not that cruel after all..Cheers!

Love Makes Us Full..

There’s no certainty in love..always vague..there’s no promise and guarantee in it..we just have to take it as it is..perhaps just cherish it while it last.."Love makes us full" ..to fill in the bits and pieces that has been missing in our life..Isn’t it nice to think of that someone all the time and miss that person terribly when they are not around?and you would wana do anything just to make that person happy?you will go that extra mile just to see her smile..On the contrary,we are often hurt by their words and irresponsible actions..but at the end of the day we still forgive them and feel its worth it..we give them chance after chance hoping that they would change but most of the time we’ll get disappointed..when it reaches to the unsustainable stage where you no longer can forgive thats where the break-up comes in..People always say learn to forgive and forget but that is not the case all the time..sometimes there are things that cant be undone and there’s no way you can turn back the hands of time..there’s no such thing as a ‘delete’ button in love..it all adds up to the memory..sometimes being good to that someone doesn’t mean she’ll do the same for you..love dont work that way..just when you feel you have sacrificed so much for that someone he/she will start to leave you and give you all kinds of excuses just to avoid seeing you..It is what I called love cycle..when you reach the end of the cycle you just need to move on and go to the next cycle..its not the end of the world..that should always be in our mind to avoid further damage to our heart..Love is important in our life..we need it to survive no matter what stage we’re in..whether we’re in "Falling in love" stage, "Patch-up" stage.. or "Break-up" stage..we still need Love..Without love we will be like lost souls wandering around aimlessly..There’s always a happy ending where people live happily ever after just by completing one whole cycle of love..God bless to those that really treasure their love!

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